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Jeff and I, once again can't concentrate. I have no idea what we are doing in first period. I just know that I have to work today and now I have to work tomorrow for Yaros. I'm never going to get anything done. So my plans for the gym and baking with Nanny and Frank have been canceled, but Friday I'm still going to spend the whole day with Frank, no matter what! I also get my refrigerator Friday.
I need to figure out where I'm spending the night Saturday. My mom's going off somewhere and I can't stay at my house due to a man that lurks and calls the house saying the we know him then hangs up. If I'm pronounced dead or convicted of murder, you know why. I'll probably stay at Nanny's and bake with Frank and her that night.
My back is hurting right now, I honestly don't know how I'm going to get through to Thursday. I'm probably going to be the grumpiest person alive. I need to go workout for a while, it actually helps my back. My aunt is determined to force my mom to take me to the doctor. Everyone in my family thinks I have scoliosis, or the beginning of a slip disk...which scares the shit out of me the be quite honest. I've complained about my back to almost everyone in my path, and I'm probably going to do it just that much more now. I just want to yell, you have no idea how frustrating it is to not even be able to sit up in my bed without sweating from the pain. AHHH!
I'm becoming more cautious about my money. I'm getting my mom to open me a savings account again, and I'm writing stuff down the I need to remember. Mainly so I don't buy anything else. I'll starve myself if I have to. Food is too much money especially when eating out all of the time. I'm just going to eat my $1.50 salad everyday and not worry about anything else.
I have no clue why, but I've lost all care for anything the has to do with my feelings. I just don't care how anyone would treat me at the moment. Lost, I guess that's how I could explain it. I need some kind of mental change...but until then I'll be sharing my mustaches with Jeff.









The Format

I've been listening to "Dog Problems" pretty much for the past 20 minutes..so I thought is was blog worthy. If you enjoy spontaneous music...well listen to it.
"And blame postmodern things I can't relate,
Like summer camp and coastal states.
Like alcohol and coffee beans.
Dance floors and magazines.
I think its safe to say I've only got myself to blame
But boys in swooping haircuts are bringing me down,
Taking pictures of themselves."