dead end song

I really hate going to the therapist all the time and going to so many different ones, I also hate how I clean my room everyday just to get myself to smile when I'm alone. I'm beginning to hate myself all over again.
I had become so comfortable with myself that I've put on so much weight and just look so ugly all the time, and now I'm not comfortable anymore and I want to loose it, all of it. I can hardly look in the mirror anymore, I just feel like I'm rotting on the inside.
I need my friends, or just someone other then myself.