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I was talking to Frank yesterday about how I missed my old friends. I feel so much younger then everyone around me. It's not that I don't feel 'equal' I just feel like sometimes I'm just the little kid that's dragged along everywhere. I miss my friends Evan, Tina, Alex, Jordan, Jamie, Dustin, and Farooke. I don't understand how we went from every weekend playing tennis and going to Jamie's house to not saying a word to each other. I love my new friends, I just miss my old ones. Evan was like a brother to me, he was a guy that I could always go to for help and rant on and on and on about anything. On band trips we were inseparable, I always felt like we were like really siblings or something. I just miss him and everyone else. There's so much that goes into my whole middle school and 9th grade era that kills me; that music, clothing, the jokes and non stop huffy's and school games we all went to. I can't believe I allowed it to come to this. It's like a long lost dream now, something that happened once and you just had to enjoy it while it happened. I just want to cry.