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Yesterday Frank came over, we played a little basketball and walked/ran (mostly walked) around my neighborhood. Then we both took shower, ate, and watched spongebob until I fell asleep. Then he tucked me in and went home. This morning just like the last I woke up in a horrible mood. Just a swarm of bad thought fill my head and I don't want to dress up, I don't want to fix my hair, and frankly I just don't feel like being noticed. I don't want to say "I want to be left alone" I really don't know what I want at this point. I'm not confused, this happens every so often, I just wish it didn't. I guess just the main key points are that I miss my dad (the family over there), I hate myself, and just having the feeling of wanting to die. I don't understand alot of this myself, so this is probably all your going to get out of me.